Office Satan

This admin job can kill me dead on my feet.

Everyday is a busy day unless I choose it not to be.  Everything needs immediate attention unless I choose to ignore it.

One day sometime ago, I went home so tired I wanted to weep but when I look back at my days each day, I feel that what I do are immaterial to real business.  It feels insignificant, unimportant, expendable.  

What do I do anyway?  I cannot even identify specific tasks aside from logistics, property management, procurement and document management.  Nothing anyone else cannot do.  I am resigned to this life.  No professional milestones.  No incredible feats.  No fireworks.  All I really do is breathe down everyone's necks and give them a little taste of hell.   

Some of my co-workers tell me they feel more secure when I handle stuff because they get the feeling things will happen no matter what.  Some tell me I handle things more efficiently and more directly.

Is this anything special or is this merely an illusion?

Sometimes I feel the need to be needed.  Important.  

Sometimes I don't want to simply be neglected to get the job done. 

I guess most administrative jobs are like this... a mere contingency.