I have written many times about the woes and joys of my love life. I sometimes think I wrote too much about it in the past but somehow this part of my life is the one that I mull over. For what is there to discuss where my career is concerned? Nothing. My daughter? Nothing. My friends? Nothing much that I can actually talk about. The books I read? I'll leave that to the experts. Politics? No. Economy? No. Social issues? Too messy. Food? Definitely no.
I am left with love. Yes. Mine. Yep, you! ;p
There are thoughts that I can not tell my one true love even if we talk about everything under the sun. Even if no holds are barred when we express our feelings.
The love of my life and after life can not be mine. Sadly, this is our predicament. I love this man to the moon and back even as I send him home to his family. In my heart of hearts I wish I didn't need to but I MUST send him away. When he goes, I try to hide my sadness from him. I act nonchalant as if I don't hurt but he sees and he feels and it saddens him as well. Never mind... for in the morrow, we will embrace again.
I heard a snippet of an old song just now... "All of a sudden, water tastes like wine." That's how it is with us. Life is much more JOYFUL!
I cherish every moment we spend together. There isn't a single minute that I don't bask in. I am blind to his faults. I am deaf to the words that he mispronounces. I am amused when he cracks his 70-year-old golfer jokes. Oh, how we laugh together! We enjoy each other a lot which is why we fall in love deeper everyday.
I know we will part someday and it consumes my soul. Please let it not be soon.
Can death and only death do us part?
I wish.
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