Another year gone. Many of us would look back to mark our life events. I look back at it and realize it was a routine year. Work, home, work home. Was there really anything significant enough for it to be a life event? Nope. Everyday was the same. Work, home, work, home.
Next year, Kayla is turning 18. An adult. Empowered to vote. She will have a voice in the world. Able to buy my cigarettes and alcohol. No longer will she be a simple kid. She can change the world. I'm surprised that she is only 18 because she is so much older than that to me. She's smarter than me, for sure. She looks at prices and weighs worth before buying anything which is a possible indication that she will handle money way better than me in the future. She will be more prosperous and hopefully, she will be happier in other aspects of life. That is not saying that I am not happy with mine but, hey, there is always room for improvement.
Speaking of room, I purged my shoe room. I threw out some. I had some repaired. I have a couple of shoes that I cannot, for the life of me, throw out. Both are really sturdy and have lasted at least 5 years. One is a pair of wooden clogs and the other one is silver wedges. The latter may have to go sometime soon. I have probably used each a total of 4 times in all these years and I really love them. What's my point? I gotta let go of some stuff in my life that are not very useful even if I love them. Like what? I don't know what for sure. What about stuff I'm addicted to. Smoking. It's a nasty habit. I got an electronic cigarette already. But no promises.
This past weekend, I watched the marathon show of Mankind: The Story Of All Of Us and realized how humans generally progressed from greed. The never-ending desire for more. I watched how weapons developed from sticks to stones to sharp stones to metal to small bullets to bigger bullets to cannon balls. Bigger, better, faster, more accurate, more devastating. I wonder, if the founding mother never planted the first farm, what would we be? Where would we be? Will we be here at all? Probably not. The series is a remarkable creation. The men who changed the world through warfare, discoveries, accidents, inventions and sheer courage were awesome. Imagine setting out to sea in little boats armed with nothing but spears and the stars to navigate by in the quest for new land. Unbelievable! Look at us, the modern man, we have to be armed with credit cards, cellphones and GPS to go to the next city. Bah!
So here I am, killing the last few hours of the year talking pointlessly, smoking, listening to tribal house music and looking forward to another year as if I have any other choice.
All in all, 2012 was a good year. I had gloomy days which made me enjoy the sunny days. I embraced loosely and lost so now I embrace tightly even if I will someday lose.
