Why, it's practically Christmas!
Now don't pfft pfft me...you'll hear that from me 8 more times until you KNOW it's Christmas!
The past few days have been blue ones. Kayla wants to move out of our room. She's going to move to the extra room and I will be left to sleep on my own. She'll still have her bed in mine for when she wants to be with her mother but soon we will be apart. I'm excited to fix up her new room. She's excited with all the space for her clothes, her books and other junk. It will cost me a bit but I'll be happy to make it as cozy as possible. She'll have a sleeping area, a study area and a sitting area. This is my project next weekend. She told me there's no need for new stuff aside from the mattress because she's thoughtful that way and doesn't want me to spend unnecessarily. It made me realize how someday soon, she'll move out and be independent. It might be sooner than I can be ready for. How time flies!
It has been two years since I have had a "husband"! Imagine that? TWO! Maybe I can really be simply alone. I just need to learn how to go out on my own. I need to be able to go to the mall, shop, watch a movie and dine by myself. It looks like a lonely life but I should be able to adjust. I can not count on Kayla to keep me company anymore. She hardly has time for me as it is. She and Levi bring me something nice to eat when they go out (charged to my card most of the time, of course) and I appreciate that they take the time to indulge me. I feel old and inept. As if I'm an invalid left at home to watch the dogs. Thank God for my dogs! I love how their eyes follow me wherever I go and if I seem to be headed to another part of the house they immediately troop along.
I fixed up my balcony! I have a comfy place for late afternoons and evenings to smoke, read, play games, listen to music or just look at the stars and wait for the moon to come out. My dogs love it! They're so cute sticking their faces close to the small gaps in the barricade to watch the goings-on below. They enjoy the summer breeze. Mojee Boy loves how the wind ruffles his hair. They take turns climbing up to sit in my lap so they can see the street better.
Days away from the office kill me. I have no entertainment at home. Nothing to expend energy on without freaking out my yaya.
I wish I weren't alone but I am. So there.
