My friend is feeling a deep yearning to be loved. She said that she realized that it has been so long since she felt loved by a man. She is tearfully empty emotionally. She longs for a man to hold her in his arms and from his heart. She longs to hold a man in her arms and from her heart. She seeks a love that is unhindered by worldly elements that will last forever.
It is sad how such a wonderfully caring and loving woman to be without romantic love for a long time in this wild, wide world. Is it because her standards are too high? Has she set her sights wrong? Is she doing enough? Is she doing too much?
She said I make it seem so easy. I fall in and out of love effortlessly. There is always someone who makes me happy or cry... love, nonetheless. She said it as if it were evil, too! LOL!
I create love opportunities and I take them. I psychologically and mentally open up and spiritually turn on my beacon. I found that there will always be one or two who will home in. Ah, love, sweet love! I give it with careless abandonment. It sure makes the world go round. We can succeed in every other aspect of life but love? Love is a different kind of challenge. It's crazy! It's scary! It's painful! But what bliss when you have it!
I guess the trick is to go easy. Just cruise. But want it. Don't fight it. Don't try to kill it with trivialities. Each man is someone's Adonis. Each woman is someone's Aphrodite.
"Cause nobody wants to be the last one there
Cause everyone wants to know that someone cares
Someone to love with my life in their hands
There's gotta be somebody for me out there."
(Nickelback - Gotta Be Somebody)
Any moment could be the moment when you find the one you'll spend forever with.
Already?!?!
Why, it's practically the end of the world!
My life is zipping by without any impact. Not to me, not to the rest of the world. I wonder if the people whose lives I touched remember me with fondness or try to forget I ever was? How do I wish it? Hmmm, well, the people in my past are in the past, aren't they? What matters are the who are in my present. The ones who are "live" right now. The ones who smile when they see me. The ones who miss me when they don't.
Memories... ah, yes. Will they all fade away? I dread the prospect of Alzheimer's disease. I think it is inevitable for me unless I exercise my brain more, take vitamin B and become less dependent on Google. Google is really bad as it encourages people to neglect knowledge and make them dependent on its information accessibility. Why bother remembering information when you can simply hit Google when you can't remember something, someone, someplace or sometime? A mere 17 years ago, when I first became an EA, I knew everyone's numbers. Now, I know diddly squat. I can't memorize any telephone number aside from my home and my office and I even get them wrong sometimes. I forget my daughter's name. I forget the name of the man I hold in my arms almost everyday.
Alas, this may be how my life will be. Nothing but a kaleidoscope of faint memories.
What a blow to my egotistic side that thinks I am the Apocalypse!
Let's ride!
Which direction? Gawdz... I forget.
